Thursday, August 12, 2010
@ 10:06:00 PM
50th post!
心里有千万个不爽却不能说出口!!!!
不爽又能怎样呢?
还不是只能把它们往肚子里吞！
突然又想到你，好像好像你哦！
如果你还在，你一定会说干嘛要那么烦啊！
心里有点空，有点寂寞 ))):
有时真觉得受不了！
Sometimes I just wonder what am I here for?
I feel helpless at times, I know I have Jesus and all
but sometimes I just hope somebody will understand me!
Is it too much to ask for? I just wanna share my feelings
with someone! ))):
I'm just trying to change for the better but can't you all just
see it? With just simple encouragement is all I need to
go on, to hang on and not go back my old ways.
But all you all do is use words to push me back to
in between of square 2 and 1! Tell me seriously what do you want?
Showing all the attitude that as in I'm in the wrong when I totally did
nothing at all! You told me I didn't care about you in the past.
So here I'm trying to show more concern and all, but once and again
you just shove me back with your hush tone and the what-the-hell-you-want's
attitude !!!!! And say I'm going back my old ways when I'm seriously trying to change!
Cant you ******* see I'm really trying VERY HARD?????????
I thought about giving up, but I know it will be stupid cos I've came so far.
It will all go to waste if I were to give up now!
I really feel like crying now, or should I say the tears are already on the verge of
dropping but I'm holding them back.
I told myself not to cry anymore after I broke up with him again.
But instead of crying because of boys, I cry always for what you said and how you
treated me! I really don't know what to do! Really, someone please guide me!
God, please send your angel to guide me! I really am tired of all these!
This is the place for me to rant, I bet no one comes here anymore.
I don't care it might be better if no one comes.
So that this can be the place where I can vent my anger and
rant all I want! (((:
Thats all for today! I had enough!
Description: I am who i am. I don't see a need for me to act like somebody else to be happy, and i love what you hate about yourself.